RSV...you STINK!

I had done everything I could think of to be "prepared" for our trip to Caldwell for Christmas. This included taking nearly every precaution to keep my kids from getting sick. (I say NEARLY every, because I couldn't keep Sedona home from school all winter.)  Well, next year I won't bother. Ha! 

I got the kids' flu shots done Tuesday before we got on the plane. 2am that morning, Sedona sounded like a barking seal. No. Not now. Really?! Good thing I had Decadron in the refrigerator. She sounded almost right as rain within 48 hours. Whatever Sedona had that caused her croup was no longer contagious and Titan didn't seem to be suffering from anything, so we left to see our friends in CO on Friday afternoon.

We spent time at a park and I could tell my normally happy baby was not feeling quite like himself. That night was LONG. Poor baby. He had what I thought was a nasty cold. We carried on and got on the plane Saturday morning and landed safely in Boise that afternoon. Sick kiddos and all. 

We suffered through the weekend, but did enjoy some outside time with the kiddos on Monday (a walk outside in the pictures above.) Titan had a pretty good day on Monday and a semi-decent night. I thought we were on the mend! I headed off to Hot Yoga with Mariam. When we got done, both of our phones had missed calls and messages. I called Austin immediately. He was in the ER with our Baby! A few nights prior, while Titan coughed and seemed to be choking at the same time, I expressed to Austin how scared I was. That I thought he had RSV, but I didn't want to be "dramatic" (a label that has plagued me most of my life) so I just kept on keepin' on. Then the great Monday and following night...I thought we really were over it and I was glad I hadn't taken him to the ER. 

Now this. My feelings were confirmed and he was in the ER without his Momma. His oxygen level was 86 and it needed to be in the high 90s.  

We hurried to meet Austin and Joe at the ER. The Doctors sent us home with an inhaler and instructions to suction out his nose. RSV is viral so there really isn't any medicine they can give him.

We went about the rest of our day 

 Look at his little eyes. He looks miserable!!

 Sedona is happiest when she has "her" dog. They are quite the pair.

 Markie working her baby magic. Poor Titan wouldn't sleep without being held. This is pretty creative! She just wiggled her legs and he fell asleep and slept for a while like that. 

Austin and I worked on finding some essential oils to help him out a little. A few hours and about $40 later, we had oils in hand.  I ran a bath with some lavendar in it to help calm him and then I rubbed diluted Breathe and Lime oils on his chest to help him breathe.

Within 10 minutes he was coughing like crazy and choking and really really struggling to get a good breath. We were scared. I could see the panic is his little eyes. Mariam called Joe, who listened to Titan over the phone. He said to take him in NOW. Austin and Markie had left to pick up dinner and Sadie and Jothan had just walked through the door. So we left Sedona with them and off we went.

We got there and they immediately put him on oxygen and measured his current level. It was 82!! No wonder his lips were turning grey and his face was pale. 

Within 15 minutes he had his coloring back but with two ER visits in one day, they needed to monitor him overnight. 

We were at an ER facility so they had to take him in an ambulance. A little crazy if you ask me, but that is what they said needed to happen. So, off we went.

 He looks so little on the gurney. 

 The paramedics were so good with him. He cried almost the whole way there and this guy just tried his darndest to get him to stop. They were so sweet.

 Finally resting.

The best part of all of this for Titan, was that he got to be naked! He loves being naked!

Well, we stayed overnight in Jojo's hospital (where Joe works) and around 3am, on Christmas Eve, they took him off oxygen to see if he could keep his levels up on his own. At 8am he was still at 96. They came in and suctioned him at 10am and checked his level again and he was still at 96 so they discharged us. 

I had a really hard time finding things (other than my amazing In-Laws and ever so supportive and concerned husband) to be thankful for during all of this. I was just so angry that all my precautionary actions had totally blown up in my face. But as I was talking to my Mom, she said, "I am just so thankful you are there. You have help. You have resources. You have Joe who can come to your aid when you are at their house. You are just in a better situation there than if you had been here or been alone in Laramie."  

You know what? She was right. I was so tired and so frustrated with all of this that I had not taken time to think about how it COULD have been. I have been so blessed with the best In-Laws a girl could ask for. I never worried about Sedona. Well, I did. But not worried about if she was feeling abandoned or forgotten by me. She had her Mimi!! Her bestest friend! I found comfort when Joe would hear Titan screaming in the night and he would come to our aid. Markie was a huge help to us when she would take Titan and labor to put him to sleep and then hold him the ENTIRE time he slept. This allowed me to shower, help Mariam in the kitchen, spend a few minutes closing my eyes after a night of only 2 hours of sleep, or connect with Sedona for a few minutes.  

Yes, there were many blessings along the way. And in the end, we got to be home with family in a warm house with amazing sea food on Christmas Eve...with our Titan who was finally sleeping and breathing well. I am so thankful for modern medicine and people who study it. Even though he didn't need medicine, they knew what to do to help him and the resources were there at our fingertips. 

We ended up having a very Merry Christmas!